21. The Bluest Eye _ Volume 3: Spring [Continue]

with the helps of jake, cholly had an opportunity to hang out with darlene. when they were having sex for the first time, 2 white men with their flashlights forced him to continue. he was having his worst nightmare which will shape his future and his character.

after the death of his aunt, cholly began his trip to find his real father, samson fuller.
samson was a crap father and he rejected cholly. but cholly had some questions like: "how would he know him? would he look like a larger version of himself?..." p. 154

soon he began to cry; "if he was very still, he thought, and kept his eyes on one thing the tears would not come" p. 156. these were the tears of manhood.

there is a quote by the way which i could not understand it completely: "they give him back his manhood, which he takes aimlessly." p. 159.
and afterwards he became free because he had no relatives.

when he was too drunk to mix his daughter and his wife, he raped pecola because "she shifted her weight and stood on one foot scratching the back of her calf with her toe. ... the timid tucked-in look of the scratching toe- that was what pauline was doing the first time he saw her in Kentucky" p. 162.

there is a man called soaphead church, which he thought of himself he had a power to make peoples wishes come true and he likes to touch the little girls' breast. he questionizes god and his job and see that he could do better. [there is a separate post on soaphead church]